Recollecting Realizations of the Reality of Repersonalization and Higher Destiny
abracad, · Categories: externally authored, spiritualityby Niánn Emerson Chase
Yearning for More and Awakening
I grew up on Native American reservations, so as a child I experienced wild open spaces of land and black evening skies unhindered by the lights of human civilization. I recall many nights looking up at the vastness of the star-studded heavens and experiencing fear and awe at the bigness and deepness of space. I felt very small and insignificant in the hugeness of what I sensed the heavens were and, at the same time, I felt lovingly enveloped by that same space.
Most of my family and friends could not quite understand what I was feeling and thinking when I tried to express the depth of my emotions and thoughts when I looked into the night sky. It was as if they did not sense the immensity of space to the extent that I did, nor did they understand the paradox of my feelings about space—fear, awe, and being loved. By the time I was ten or eleven, I was more at ease with my mixed emotions about space. Thus I relaxed and basked in the beauty and wonder of the night skies, and did so without needing to share my thoughts and feelings with other humans, for I sensed the presence of unseen family and friends and was “at home†with seeming solitude. (more…)